Dear Mike, >> but I still can't find the right way.still moving in same circles.so... I'm >> looking for help. << In the "Files" section of the BardonPraxis page ( http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BardonPraxis/files/ ), I've uploaded a copy of my practical commentary upon Bardon's first book. [The English title is "Initiation Into Hermetics" (IIH).] I wrote it for serious students just like yourself, who are having difficulties. :) This downloadable file is in .PDF format, for which you need an "Adobe Acrobat Reader". It's also available on my website in .HTML (webpage) format. At present, it's not available in a Czechian translation but will soon be available in German (thanks to some really wonderful volunteers!), in case that's easier for you than English. I hope you will feel comfortable asking questions here. Out of the 70+ members who are also practicing students of "Brana Kopravdovemu Zasvceni" (hope I spelled that right!), there's bound to be at least one who has moved around these same circles . . . and found their way out. My best to you, :) Rawn Clark 30 Dec 2002 rawnclark@... rawn@... http://www.ABardonCompanion.com http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BardonPraxis [Non-text portions of this message have been removed]