Dear Viraj, >> i have a question concerning the use of ayahuasca: can those plants help to heal and prepare the different bodys for expansion, are they beneficial even in long term? or is the effect just limited to the time of use and there is no substitute for practice and work? or is the use of natural psycedelics (the shaman way) even contradictory to bardon praxis? << There's a LOT more to the Shamanic path than just taking a few hallucinogens! ;-) There's no less "practice and work" to the Shamanic path than there is in the Hermetic path. In the right context, the use of psychedelics can indeed have long-term healing effects, but in the wrong context the exact opposite can easily result and there can occur a magnification of dis-ease. If you're truly interested in exploring that avenue, then I suggest you hook up with a *real* Shaman and ask for some guidance. Shamanism and Bardonism are not incompatible, however, they both require a distinctly different sort of training. >> i am still struggeling with step one, means trying to keep vigilant in meditation and aware in daily life. and i have the feeling that i need some support to get out of my fixed patterns of life, to heal some issues in the body wich keep me dull and weak. << First off, stop *struggling*. ;-) Seriously, let go of that mind-set of 'struggle'. Instead, relax into it. Otherwise, it will become a burden very quickly and you'll get discouraged, which is no fun. Secondly, I'd suggest some other healing modality than taking psychedelics. If you're into Shamanic traditions, I'd suggest seeking out a Sweat Lodge Ceremony with a *real* Med'cine Person. Otherwise, something along the lines of Ayruveda, Chinese Medicine, etc., . . . something that addresses the *whole* person. And thirdly, the major portion of the work of character transformation begins with Step Two. With Step One, you're just taking stock of the inner territory, but in Step Two you really begin making changes to the inner landscape. These are the techniques which will get you out of those fixed patterns and help you to heal those internal issues which are keeping you "dull and weak". If you've already finished the construction of your positive and negative Soul Mirrors, but are still working your way through the meditation exercises, then I suggest that you look ahead to Step Two and check into the techniques that Bardon described for use in the character transformation. There would be no harm in your applying them to the central issues that are making you feel the way you've described. My best to you, :) Rawn Clark 27 Jun 2003 rawnclark@... rawn@... http://www.ABardonCompanion.com http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BardonPraxis http://E.webring.com/hub?ring=arionthebardonwe