Dear NB, What you describe is the "normal" human experience. >> a) I have been able to keep myself in this state during *my whole life* because the level of real permanent awareness required by my daily activities was fairly low. IIH not included :-) << This is not true. This has nothing to do with what has been *required* of you. It has to do with what you've been willing to give. You can just as easily give your whole attention to the most mundane activities. My best to you, :) Rawn Clark 30 Oct 2003 rawnclark@... rawn@... http://www.ABardonCompanion.com http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BardonPraxis http://E.webring.com/hub?ring=arionthebardonwe