Thanks Rawn. I appreciate the support that you and this group have given me; you've all been very helpful, in providing a reflection for myself. The best thing I can say about all of this (and it sure wasn't very encouraging to see some ugly parts of myself) is that it's REAL and that's what is beautiful. A little discomfort is worth it in the long run. I have "busted" myself back to the thought-control exercise, after thinking that I was ready for Step Two. I realized that I was too greedy, and thinking of the ten steps, particularly the mental exercises, as something I had to "get over with" instead of enjoy, learn from, and fully experience. So much better to start again. Thanks, David