Dealing With Barriers to Progress
>> When I start reading IIH, I nod off. What causes this and what can I do to overcome it? <<
This sounds like an emotional "blockage". When we are holding on to an unresolved emotional issue, it can exercise some pretty surprising effects. For example, you spoke of your frustration over making no progress with these other systems, you described your pain at being led along by others, and you expressed your fear of playing the fool yet again. All of this was set in contrast to your feelings that Bardon is presenting something very genuine. This is a perfect example of an internal, emotional schism. On the one hand, you're afraid to move forward, and on the other hand, you feel unfulfilled without forward progress. The simplest solution to the psyche (our emotional, subconscious mind) is to shut everything down, go to sleep and thereby avoid the issue entirely.
The only way out of a situation like this is to directly and consciously address both the fear that prevents progress and the yearning for progress that sets the fear in such sharp contrast.
A friend recently described to me his own process of dealing with similar blockages and I think it might assist you here. When he runs into difficulty with an exercise, he stops and looks within. He then examines his difficulty in the context of his three bodies (mental, emotional and physical) and asks himself to which realm his blockage pertains. Does it have to do with how he has conceptualized the exercise (mental); with how he feels about the exercise (emotional); or with how his body feels while doing the exercise (physical)? Once he pinpoints the location(s) of the blockage, he can then begin addressing it on a *conscious* level and make whatever adjustments in himself or his practice that are necessary.
My best to you,
:) Rawn Clark
31 May 2002