>> For practice, in attempting to achieve emptiness of mind, I work with Rawn's Center of Stillness Meditation. I'm still talking to myself to create the colored spheres and moving them when I'm supposed to be separating myself from them. Looking back to see them, takes longer than I have before we move to the next sense. For me to actually keep up to the pace, I have to step out of my self and view the entire scene from the outside of the creation. I look down on the structure with me inside. But then I fall behind again while pulling myself back inside to be able to work with the next sense. <<
I wish you had written to me earlier! :)
I suggest the following:
#1) Do away with following the recording and try going at *your* own, organic pace without it. It sounds like you understand the basic technique of separation from the senses and that is all the recording is really useful for -- learning the technique.
#2) For now, do away with the visualization aspect. It's not essential. You could just as well create the same separateness from your senses by simply separating them, without going through the process of visualizing it as well. Just *feel* the separation and subsequent absence of that sense's input.
#3) If re-connecting with the sense you've just separated from in this non-visual manner, also presents too great an interruption to your overall continuity, then simply by-pass that step for now. Try first to separate from all 7 senses and once you've achieved that, then worry about strengthening your ability to re-connect and disconnect at will.
#4) You can also achieve the remainder of the CSM without having to visualize it. Simply *feel* it.
My best to you,
:) Rawn Clark
10 Sep 2002