Maria My advice may be unpopular on this list, but this is my immediate (and strongly felt) response to a couple things you wrote: >I know I will not give up, I dedicated my path to this teaching. Response: Why so determined to do it Bardon's way? There are surely as many different paths as the human imagination can dream up. Why must Maria's path be the same as Bardon's path? >Who out there, would be willing and capable to give me some true guidance? Start by listening to your own inner guidance. If it tells you to persevere with Bardon, then do so. If it tells you you need a break, then give Bardon a rest. You can always come back to it, and maybe with more success once you're not pressing so hard. John E. (dissenting opinions welcome of course) [Non-text portions of this message have been removed]