Re: [BardonPraxis] Re: transition to step two?

["lux xul" <luxxul@...>]

Greetings.

I would like to suggest a modification of attitude that may help. Tyrants 
are blessings waiting to be received.



> From: "David Yeh" <ldreamr@...>
> Reply-To: BardonPraxis@yahoogroups.com
> To: BardonPraxis@yahoogroups.com
> Subject: [BardonPraxis] Re: transition to step two?
> Date: Sun, 23 Nov 2003 21:45:28 -0000
>
> Hi Stephen,
> <snip>

> I speculate that this has something to do with feeling uncomfortable at
> meals with my family when I was younger. I think when I tell
> myself, "Okay, David, you can't do these other fun things like read
> or talk, you have to not think of anything but this wish," I react as
> if I were being coerced. And who would want to let himself be
> coerced.
Personally I believe that the most potentially profitable persons in our 
life OR situations in our life are where we must internally modify ourselves 
to respond to a tyrant or tyrannical situation.

If I *know* why I am doing something (why I am submitting my time or energy 
or opinions, etc. (ie What is my INTENT.) to some tyrant or tyrannical 
situation, then I may get bruised, broken, insulted, etc. (wonderful for the 
soul mirror BTW..). Bruises heal... breaks mend, insults are more about me 
than the tyrant, etc.

ex. Staying in a job where you are unhappy for as long as you need to get 
what you need on your resume to move on or mature where it does not effect 
you anymore and you realise you may find JOY (not necessarily happiness - 
unsure about definition) anywhere you desire to, even there.

In the end, *my intent* is made manifest and I depart knowing I was master 
of my choices at all times, even **when I believed** that the **tyrant 
believed** that they controlled. If I could put aside my ego and false self 
importance long enough to recall *my intent* for being there, then once 
again, I didnt need a *reflection of their belief to convince me* of my own 
intent or strength or "reason d'etre".

I would submit to you that "Personalities" must have reflections to feel 
satisfied that they have accomplished something (ie - it must be seen and 
aknowledged by others mainly to be accepted as a fact in the personalities 
expereince). My "whole self" perhaps does not ( I dont believe it does... 
consider One Pointedness experiences) and the subtle is supposed to rule the 
gross.

Its not about grasping power from something as much as it is about moving 
out of the way so that power may manifest through you without corruption.




> It seems that I need to tackle these feelings, otherwise I won't be
> able to progress.
>
>
> David

Try not identifying with them as you. They are feelings. They are not you. 
(IIH step 1A)

Perhaps your understanding (childlike level w/o words emotionally that 
influences us all hidden and without a name - metaphorically speaking) could 
profit from a understanding that you choose no matter what and that you 
cannot escape the consequence of your choices... (once this is an accepted 
fact in the person (i think) there is little room for obvious resentment) -> 
thus the rebelliousness feelings b/c your personlity emotively does not 
question that someone else is taking power over you and reacts without your 
conscious awareness that it is reacting in incomplete understanding.

Perhaps Power is always granted, never taken. Power over self, inner choices 
and attitudes, not physical conditions is the area I speak of.

ONce again, I ramble and my personality is witness. :)

Thank you.

With respect ,

:T:

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