Fear of change, that is it. As I work through all of this, that remains thecentral issue. It is not the change itself, but not having any idea what Imight change into. When I study music or art I hope to become an accomplished musician or artist.With this I am less clear about the end results. I only know that I am lead to pursue the work. I would like understand how others deal with having such a unique view of the world. At times I find the isolation distracting. Rawn Clark <rawnclark@...> wrote:Dear Stu, Nice to e-hear from you on the BardonPraxis. :) >> As to what is needed before actually starting the exercises, that seems to be a question about where the "beginning" is. Rawn writes that Bardon´s system starts at the beginning, but that´s Rawn ;-) << ;-) ;-) No, it's not just *me*, it's *you* too . . . You started the exercises, got a certain ways, and then backed off. During the time you backed off, IIH never left you. It, and the work you did do, continued to affect you. Eventually, that continuous effect instigated sufficient changes within you and here you are, back to the exercises again. :) *That* *is* how one begins. Most of us have a similar experience with IIH, where we begin, back off, mature and restart afresh. *That* is *part of* the *process* of IIH. This is what I mean by saying that IIH starts at *the* beginning. >> In music, if you are to play a difficult piece, like a Chopin etude for example, you will probably do many preliminary exercises before starting out on the piece itself. << Ah, but *beginning* one's initiation is not equivalent to playing a Chopin etude. Beginning initiation (i.e, Step One) is akin to first learning what a piano *is* and what it is capable of doing. >> It seems that if there´s ONE quality that is central here, it would be ruthless honesty: How much do I really want it? How much am I prepared to pay for it? << The other side of that coin is: How unsatisfied with my present-self am I? How much am I prepared to gain from pursuing this work? And the metal that coin is made from is fear of change . . . My best to you, :) Rawn Clark 10 Dec 2004 rawnclark@... rawn@... http://www.ABardonCompanion.com http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BardonPraxis http://E.webring.com/hub?ring=arionthebardonwe Yahoo! Groups SponsorADVERTISEMENT --------------------------------- Yahoo! Groups Links To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BardonPraxis/ To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: BardonPraxis-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service. --------------------------------- Do you Yahoo!? The all-new My Yahoo! ? Get yours free! [Non-text portions of this message have been removed]