Solar opening

[Jindøich Chmelaø <poebldorf@...>]

Hello Rawn and friends :-)¨
First let me introduce myself. I'm from Czech republic and about five
years ago I realized that there is more than this physical world and I
started to read, learn and meditate. I found early that there is one
universal "religion" which is a key to understanding every other
specific religion or teaching. I had seen books by F. Bardon in the
shops for a long time, but I got to them just about one year ago. For
a long time I thought that magic is something bad and too dangerous
and I thought yoga or other eastern systems are much straighter and
safer. Well, now I'm finding myself interested much more in exploring
the infinite universe and in aligning myself with Divine Providence
than in escaping from suffering or dissolving in Nirvana. Maybe it is
only my misunderstanding of the aims of buddhism or yoga, however now
I think that Hermetism is more complex mainly due to its concern in
the creation as well as in emptiness or akasha. It is simply complex
system and philosophy as I can see now.

Now to my problem. Last year I have found myself very tightened and
full of many fears, which have often been associated with the conflict
between how I want to look like before people and how I feel or want
to act. I just cannot put aside the habit of controlling myself even
if I wish to let it flow. Therefore I often feel big presure, even
pain on my solar plexus and I find it quite negative. I think that
this can be the result of my working with energy which I realy love.
But sometimes it is too strong and I find myself unable to handle such
amount of energy. Of course it is possible to go out and do some
physical work as running, but I think tehre could be some exercise
that can help to use this energy in more efficient way. I'm trying to
open nadis and chakras, but I feel it is often too violent and I don't
want to harm myself. If you could share your experiences, I would be
very grateful.

Thank you and good luck in practice
JCH