Re: [BardonPraxis] Recurring fear

[Modrocus <modrocus@...>]

If it is indeed a lavae, then one of this type needs
to be confronted and absorbed. Externalizing or
ignoring it can make the fear more alien and even
appearent. Bring it back inside yourself and deal with
it.

You can even use the autosuggestion techniques from
IIH to help you out.

Mod

--- Andrew Llewellyn
<andrew@...> wrote:
> Hi NB,
> 
> Seems like you may have created a larvae. In my
> experience I reckon the 
> best thing to do is either a) ignore it , b) use
> your imagination - perhaps 
> a shield around your person? or c) observe your fear
> in your mind.
> 
> Cheers,
> 
> Andy
> 
> 
> 
> At 06:57 16/01/03 -0800, you wrote:
> >After 1-2 weeks working on the first exercise of
> the
> >first level (!), I was obliged to recognize that a
> >peculiar, specific and recurring problem was
> >preventing a "full scale concentration" during my
> >practice.
> >
> >This problem is a fear of being disrupted or
> assaulted
> >during the exercise (even if I'm alone in my flat),
> >which obliges me to keep a certain portion of my
> mind
> >observing and watching, the result being that only
> >60-80 % of my consciousness are allocated to the
> >exercise, while the rest is "expecting something to
> >happen".
> >
> >Physical assaults and disruptions took place in the
> >past I must say (outside meditations, but
> frequently
> >when I was quiet), so my "strategy" became to be
> >always alert, with the "alarm switched <on>".
> >I know this sounds quite pathological, but I need
> to
> >solve it - and I'm gonna solve it this time.
> >
> >In the past, the fact that I was fearing something
> >each time I meditated had a funny side-effect,
> meaning
> >that I learned to reach alpha level and deeper
> quite
> >rapidly (getting eyes movements etc.) as well as
> >coming back earlier than the other students.
> Although
> >I had good results from my visualizations, all this
> >doesn't help me now when practicing the Bardon
> system,
> >which implies staying in the exercise a fixed
> amount
> >of time.
> >
> >...And I realize now that I was never 100 % in my
> >previous practices, regardless of what I may have
> >believed at that time, and that this fear was
> present
> >at the back of my mind all the time - even outside
> my
> >meditations. Always unconsciously looking above my
> >shoulder, so to speak.
> >
> >I obviously tried to look at the elements-related
> >components (Fire and Air and Water maybe, not to
> speak
> >about Earth :-), but I have problems determining
> what
> >belongs to the cause, to the effect, and especially
> >what the cure is :-)
> >
> >How can I solve that ? How can I suppress that fear
> ?
> >
> >Many thanks
> >NB
> >
> >
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