Dear Chenxsi, >> I am sure this is one of those sub-conscious protection mechanism or something...but if this is the case, how am i suppose to be able to transform my personality at all? << You're experiencing what I call the "rubber-band effect". This is when your auto-suggestion is so contrary to your normal state and so unsupported by other techniques of self-transformation that it cycles between being very effective one moment, and snapping back to ineffectiveness the next moment. Transformation of the negative character traits requires more than just the one technique of auto-suggestion, no matter how strongly or obsessively it's applied. I think the main issue here relates back to our previous discussion about getting down to the root of your Soul Mirror items. I suggest that you meditate more deeply upon this issue of self-confidence and explore its root causes. Ask yourself, "Why do I normally feel so little confidence?" Once the 'why' is grasped, you will be able to transform the root cause and the symptom, instead of just the symptom. And once the 'why' is grasped, the proper applications of the various techniques of self-transformation that Bardon lists in Step Two, will be obvious to you. And, as Hilikus pointed out, don't over-do the auto-suggestion. Just "relax" into it. My best to you, :) Rawn Clark 14 Jul 2003 rawnclark@... rawn@... http://www.ABardonCompanion.com http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BardonPraxis http://E.webring.com/hub?ring=arionthebardonwe