Mental problem, an advise please!

["kos_kou4" <kos_kou4@...>]

Hello friends,

I am new to this group and I am still practising Bardon's step one. 
But the last week I had some kind of a problem. I had obsessive 
thoughts, I couldn't consestrate, my mind went blank, had absence of 
emotional responsiveness and reduction in awareness. As you can 
understand my first thought was that "ok you are a mad man now, 
don't panic you just have to go to the psyciatry clinic". I have 
always been really nervous guy. Always something to do, couldn't sit 
down, always in a mood that "I have to leave now" and lots of other 
things that a really nervous guy can do. When this "crisis" slow 
down a bit I searched in the internet about mental problems and I 
found very interesting things. All the symptoms that I have a few 
years now are stress symptoms caused by a trauma. Now, about 
Bardon's work I have done something really foolish. I have done the 
mental exercise WRONG for five months. So, a week ago when I 
understand this got really anxious and stressfull and I think that 
these stressfull feelings might triggered this crisis. What I want 
for you, please, is just an advise. To stop Bardon's course it is 
not a sollution because it is very importand to me, is like a life 
purpose. And except from this in first step we learn to control our 
mind which for me I think that it is the best therapy for my 
problem. I can't afford a therapist and even if I could, I couldn't 
tell him about Bardon and occult because he woudn't understand. So, 
what do you thing, should I stop Bardon's course or should I fight 
it? Do you thing that this course could be a therapy for my 
problem? 

Regards, Kostas